Here’e the thing about fear…it can use up a lot of time. Waste it. That’s what has been happening this week.
Let me start again. I’ve been watching my fear this week. No, it’s not about the coming year, getting older, financial insecurity, political confusion, et cetera–the usual suspects. It’s about needing to learn something new in an area that leaves me mystified at best.
See, psoriasis used to scare me. Always in the back of my mind–was it going to get worse? And if it did, what should I do? What could I do? And I knew the answer. I’d been through it once every year or two for the past four decades.
It looked like this.
A flare started. Usually on my ankles. Then it moved up my legs. I learned from experience not to let it get past my legs. That turned into serious torture from itching and the inevitable hiding out. At home. Not a social time. Depression. A good time to write, actually–trying to see the bright side.
And then began the three times a week riding a bicycle, not too far fortunately, to the skin care centre to spend a ridiculously short time being zapped with serious UVB–high intensity–head wrapped in a towel–all other parts of the body seen by the nurse. Hard to believe you could get a burn from a couple of seconds too much. But it happened. Not very often. They were organized–the nurses. Had it down to the second. On paper.
But that’s not the fear of this week. This week it was a new area (for me) on the computer. Regarding this blog. How to add audio. Mike (our web genius) sent me perfectly clear videos. That I could look at over and over again. And I did. They got me closer to putting audio on this blog.
Then I took notes on the videos. Nice, clear notes that I could understand and not have to memorize. Just do this. Do that. I can do that. Simple instructions. I’m not a complete idiot. I’ve fixed cracks in the wall with paper machee (sp?) made from Chinese paper. It’s the best. Tough.
But I’m veering in an irrelevant direction. Basically, that’s how far I got last night. I now have notes. But there’s still no actual audio that will show up today on this blog. I’ve passed that window of opportunity. I’m aiming for next week. I’ll ask you to hold me in your thoughts and prayers. I wish I was kidding.
But, what does this have to do with a picture of two glasses of tea? That’s right. Tea. Those are not glasses filled with water color or some sports drink. That is a tea from Thailand called Dok Anchan (sweet peas and watercress) that when steeped in water for 3 minutes or so turns this soft sapphire blue. But if you put a few drops of lemon or lime or vitamin C, turns a hopped up amethyst. The blue is my favourite. Rarely found in nature. The sky, yes. But not many flowers.
Anyway, it’s a little hard to admit that I’m such a sissy when it comes to technology. I’d rather do hard labor, housework, a manicure, do the dishes, it’s a sunny day–take Lucky to the beach, she needs a bath, I think I’ll watch that movie, maybe I’ll binge watch something on Netflix. The ways to procrastinate are endless. Although I do think that washing my bar of soap was important and I’m glad I did it.
And I’m glad to be drinking blue tea. It’s like drinking the sky on a summer’s day.
I will do my best this coming week to overcome this current challenge.
Much love,
Dakota and Lucky
